WHO WANTS TO WATCH ME KILL SOME PEOPLE
I get that Mii’s mother is lost and afraid and hurting. I get that her friends are desperately wanting to help. I get that it’s easier to have one specific person to blame than the huge scary unknown. I get it.
BUT I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD I’M GOING TO KILL ME SOME PEOPLE
It’s breaking Rei’s heart that she can’t help. Look at this shit:
All this time, Rei’s suffered the stares and the whispers and the isolation her powers have brought her. Finally, FINALLY, she could maybe to something good with them. Something she wants to do: find the little girl who is almost certainly one of the few people in the entire world who shows Rei any affection at all.
But she can’t. They just don’t work like that.
Once again, Rei’s caught by everyone else’s perception of her. They see her as so powerful and terrifying, but never how she actually is. (This is an interesting parallel to Ami, as well, who was only ever seen for her brain. I suspect this will carry through to Mako, as well, who as we know is only ever seen for her strength.) Then when Rei is truthful, the kind of truth she’s waited her whole life to tell someone and have them hear, they think she’s lying and being selfish.
Worse, that she’s the CULPRIT.
This would be (and IS) awful in and of itself, but it absolutely kills when you think how this is the closet Rei’s ever been to having people understand how she feels. Rei cares about Mii-chan too. Rei feels that helplessness. This should be a time for everyone to come together over this little girl’s disappearance, and yet even here Rei is pushed outside.
Looking at Rei standing accused of being the villain, seeing her hang her head and sink deeper into herself in the face of it and do nothing to fight back, I’m reminded of earlier where she played to these perceptions to drive Usagi away.
How close is Rei to giving up and doing that with everyone, I wonder? How close is she to appearing the terrifying and powerful person they all want to see?
I think closer perhaps than she truly realizes.